Saturday, October 17, 2009

28 Names For Snow

The movement of Orgone in my body has been buried in tension.  Addiction is a result of the stilling of the Orgone. The search for a addictive pleasure is being unaware of the Orgone streaming and will keep you living outside yourself, planning, organizing, and keeping busy; basically looking for your next hobby, or addiction. 

How many names for the energy, Orgone, Prana, Chi, Ki, that is in your body? Yet no names for the actual movement of Orgone.It is simple very few people have accessed those currents that are moving or really for most of us not moving.
Perhaps coming up with names that are more descriptive for the movement of Orgone will clue us into navigating our own Orgone matrix more successfully. The names I want to come up with are descriptions of the actual movements of the Orgone. Fear could be named sudden storm, anger could be called boiling. Joy could be called
no gravity and grief could be called drowning. Anxiety can be called rising and falling with no destination. Depression can be called horse on chest. Roller Coaster panic. Rocket fear. There can be many names for the different aspects of the movement.

 A a baby when  abused, the anger moved, rose to the surface. Than fear accompanied the movement, the muscles locked and froze the Orgone as armor.  Any movement might initiate the abuse again. Being still felt safe. I call this the void. This habitual pattern blocks the initial first rush of Orgone release. The initial release is like the breaking of a dam. That is one reason for the therapist, it's dangerous to experience feeling streaming Orgone. It is a shock that scares you into thinking something is really wrong.

For the lucky few addiction can lead to therapy. Ultimately the flow of Orgone is smooth sailing. Light breeze. Lunch served. The silent knowing.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

It's Easy Addiction

Two reasons addictions are prevalent:
first our culture and families are not modeling addictive free behavior,
secondly addiction is easy.

Compare how easy it is to eat my favorite bunch of donuts to
accessing my hidden feelings. Since it has
been easy to feel pleasure, and you haven't worked to understand how to find pleasure by challenging yourself, by learning new behavior, by finding satisfaction in growth than that smug attitude will appear. You no longer need other people because you have your addiction or you need other people to vent your addiction.

The result is the same isolation and a descent into a destructive life.
Learning about yourself and how examining one's life is hard work. Yet built into your being is the ability to find pleasure by challenging yourself, by growing, by changing. Knowing the journey is difficult gives one empathy, compassion for all.