Being held does not mean being felt. Without a rational emotional spontaneity, the spiral of not knowing how to achieve satisfaction will not be accessible. I had to dull my organism and armor caused addiction.
Oddly you can be alive and not be aware that your only half alive. Abuse has limited you. To keep on living you closed down the experience of abuse. The tortuous birth, circumcision, sexual abuse, flatten the Orgone.
Added to that abuse was neglect; the culture and the family left little time for intimacy that was needed for emotional growth. As a baby there was no words only the movement of Orgone; the movement became fully frozen unconscious. Sadly no one knew how to release the scarred, scared, panicked babies anger. The unreleased Orgone cuts off the movement of emotion.
As a maturing child the build up of Orgone has to be released and pushes against the old armored Orgone. As an adult, often an addictive lifestyle is a "satisfying"solution for unease that will turn nasty, hurtful, in pursuit of false understanding and search for a satisfying release.
Added to that abuse was neglect; the culture and the family left little time for intimacy that was needed for emotional growth. As a baby there was no words only the movement of Orgone; the movement became fully frozen unconscious. Sadly no one knew how to release the scarred, scared, panicked babies anger. The unreleased Orgone cuts off the movement of emotion.
As a maturing child the build up of Orgone has to be released and pushes against the old armored Orgone. As an adult, often an addictive lifestyle is a "satisfying"solution for unease that will turn nasty, hurtful, in pursuit of false understanding and search for a satisfying release.
The body is tense, and it has been that way since birth. Your mother did not know how to emote and involuntarily has frozen her muscles and squeezed ones birth into a survival nightmare. You want to flow, to expand but your stuck. Everyone has forgotten there contracted, because survival demands activity, and we take our forgotten tense body everywhere. Then we find something that releases part of that tension, often we don't care if it is an addictive substance, could be food, sweet, coffee, wine, sex: what we have is no real understanding of addiction.
In reality addiction is an unconscious need to release the built up of Orgone that is making the tension unbearable. As a child you might run for release. As an adult its not the actual addictive substance you seek but the expressive anger at past forgotten abuses that couldn't be named and was not expressed. Orgone Therapy unlocks that frozen smile, and the release is felt, satisfying, and genuine.
