Anorgonia is a reappearance of buried Orgone's struggle to express the abuse, validation, and physical neglect of ones early family, often coincides with disease. Anorgonia is horrendous, and life threatening and wipes out Orgone and motivation. Dr. Reich summarizes his anorgonia cases in The Cancer Biopathy. .
No one was their.
I laid their addicted to
The sunshine. I would wait it
Out,.
I went on.
I didn't know there would be a murderous
Late payment
Anorgonia.
Devastating is that me? It is push and disappear. It is ugly. When telling the truth is frightening than Orgone pushes forward and then back. Going to get hit. Saying I'm here and your going to get hit. The answer from them is devastating, it's cellular. There is no body, no Orgone, just words by the walking dead. In therapy reliving this tragedy is overwhelming: life missed. It is a hole that I fell into. I disappeared.
What I needed, wanted was flesh closeness. Not getting this life saving closeness causes a flattening, a stilling. Symbolically, and physically it's a no body. As an adult that is a fall. I cannot stand without a body.
I had to experience my earliest abuse: being not touched, no loving hands, no soft warm breast. I went into hibernation. I never woke to Orgone. Over time Orgone flow gets buried and I lived with a diminished self. It is a black hole of disappearance. It's there forgotten, furious. That black hole is a dead sun. It is broken. It's real.
It was dangerous accessing my earliest neglect. A solid abuse lived in me. Orgone stayed buried in the past. Initial Orgone would totally fill me and depress me. Now I new the difference. My disappearing Orgone was no mother, no loving contact. When remembered as an adult, it was finally an Emotional Plague. That was what saved me. A held in discomfort. Orgone's Therapies knowledge told me to emote, breathe. A memory that made me move, to emote the neglect and not lay there comatose waiting for mother to come. She didn't come. She was the walking Emotional Plague. She could not give me closeness which would have activated my body.
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You cannot change the past, you can react to the past. Orgone reemerging. That is the struggle, reenergizing as an adult. The parts of you that were needed to hide must be seen. Those first few years needed to be super secure. If not the babies cellular response is contraction, automatic. The thorough disappearance of adult pleasure is the earliest abuse emerging. The key is learning how to breathe, emote and inch by inch experiencing plasma motility in the body. The bodies Orgone will open up constricted plasma. Make sure you have paid attention to opening up the body by reaching to closed parts. The soreness will let you know that your opening buried Orgone.
Orgone knowledge is essential when you have anorgonia. Those contractions are deep and unconscious. Practicing the Gag reflex that is taught in Orgone Therapy helps to identify the hidden deep cellular stillness. The gag reflex awakens over time Orgone flow. The spontaneity of my new motility has no conscious control. I look forward to the Orgone surprise movement. Orgone movement is alive with its own timing. Orgone is the bigger part of me that I suppressed. Orgone moving outward is pleasure. Orgone is life's expression.
