Crippled

Blueberries, pies and lilac trees
In our secretive desperate meetings.
Blueberry pie at home and lilac torn and given.
It all went so fast, my rhythm.
I would lose everything ultimately,
White, soft, warm,


My wondering 
Of a previous time.
Much was missing then.
The wetness, that smell of flesh,
Of milk that was sweet.
Of mountainous flesh that was safe.
.

I would lose everything ultimately,
White, soft, warm,
White, soft, warm

Myron Sharaf

Myron included me, something an Orgonomist would never do: no rejection, no anger. Emotional connection is paramount within families and I became aware that I was not included. Being excluded elicits rage. Dr. Sharaf, author of Fury On Earth, biography of Dr. Wilhelm Reich, and part of the Rangeley, Maine group,  knew the importance of being left out, and though I was visible to Myron, and he could see the Orgone  in me, emoting the rage seemed absence in Myron. Did he access the early primary Orgone?  Perhaps his demeanor  fooled me but  my anger, and Orgonomy left me aware in an area that Myron didn't project.

For Wilhelm Reich, for Dr. Rinn it was Doctor, not for Dr. Sharaf, it was Myron and the friendship built on that first name basis was paramount. The difference was Dr. Reich recognized, understood the importance of his knowledge and insisted to be called Dr. Reich and not Willy. First names confuses the patient. Dr. Reich knew to be successful he had to have total cooperation, and first name basis is hidden competition. Dr. Sharaf never finished his understanding of his personal Orgone Therapy. Until the  Orgone patient stops misunderstanding the need for  Dr. Reich's forceful approach he cannot be objective in his critique of  Dr. Reich. Calling Dr. Reich belligerent  and using hearsay accounts is in bad taste. 

I was a tough case for Myron. I am a confirmed Dr. Wilhelm Reich advocate. Orgonomy saved my life. The Therapy continues to amaze me. It continues to open me up in so many unexpected ways. My addictive struggles became understood. Addiction is a substitute reality. It is unconscious action that hides a reality that has been buried by abuse. Finally the impotency can be transformed as an adult into freeing rage.

Myron, no doubt totally respected Dr. Reich but it got convoluted when Dr. Reich developed a relationship with Myron's wife. A hard transition followed though Myron absolutely loved Dr. Reich's work. I heard Myron give a talk and he was astoundingly clear in explaining Dr. Reich's history, his importance and his work. Yet when I spent some time with Myron in therapy, and Myron was truly perceptive, the therapy was different than Orgonomy. I had spent many hours with different therapists but this was Myron's synthesis and it would not have saved me. Oh no I needed a shovel, a jackhammer, and Myron was soft, loving, and wonderful. He was there for you. He knew suffering and he would hold your hand when you cried.  He became a friend to me and many others.  

I asked him why he changed Orgone Therapy to his therapy and he simply said Orgone Therapy didn't work for him. For me Myron's other anger releasing Bioenergetics' techniques became just techniques and were less empowering. Myron relied on the contact he learned from Orgonomy to heal. He knew for most of us the deep armor was unreachable. Abuse 
could only be mediated, and kindness, gentleness was his solution, and I miss him.