Unrestricted Breathing

In the beginning there was breath or another word for breath is spirit or God.
Breath is the beginning because it is energy; breathing not only brings in the prana, chi or orgone but full breathing moves the energy within you. Dr. Wilhelm Reich called the energy and feelings moving in your body orgone and the sensations of the movement streamings. He taught his patients how to begin to acces these feeling by breathing unrestrictedly.

The problem with breathing and knowing who you are begins at birth. Like the possum who feigns death to avoid notice babies shut down their breathing instinctively, to avoid the awareness of horrible birth practices. In the baby particularly breathing will shut down awareness: for the baby consciousness is powered by breath. Life for everyone is powered by breath but in babies there are no memories or distractions or addictions to allow you to escape abuse; babies escape is often an out of body experience(a baby form of meditation) fueled by shallow breathing. 

Mother also finds escape in shallow breathing; in enlightened birth practices deep breathing is practiced but unconsciously blocked by repression. Armored Mothers choose Cesarean sections and often it's recommended. The shutting down of consciousness after birth abuse makes life easier for parents, doctors and nurses. Modern birth for the baby, parents and help is like a trip to a war zone.

Shallow breathing allows everyone not to feel. Unrestricted breathing hardly exists in our culture.
Consciously trying to change your breathing patterns is tremendously difficult because the act of consciously breathing reminds you unconsciously of ones traumatic birth and other traumas.
Shallow breathing was the first habit that saved you from experiencing birth horrors; one feels safe not to feel. Safety allows the baby to sleep through the trauma. Any habit is difficult to change and because breathing is instinctive and is the first template, the first mold, the first impression, it is the hardest to change. 

Breathing is the engine that begins awareness, and compressing, restricting the musculature in the diaphragm stops the intake of energy and the movement of energy in the body: shallow breathing stops awareness, perception of the energy movement and particularly holding back exhalation can cause a inward, restricted flow of of Orgone, anxiety. All of us breathe, we all take breathing for granted. Unrestricted breathing moves feelings, without full breathing life's meanings become unknowable. Many full breaths need to be inhaled before the new feelings appear. Sadly one needs to go through Pandora's Box (baby and child trauma) to access unrestricted breathing: for most of us a long and difficult journey.


When you begin to experience full breathing there is the realization that there is hope. Hope is the realization that you can change your life and move towards pleasure. Being conscious of one's breathing is experiencing Orgone, the automatic completion of the inhale and the release of the exhale. Over time Orgone will be experienced entering the lungs automatically, the lungs move on their own and will stimulate a  filling completion. Addictions, like breathing move feelings often not consciously: Temporary addictions are better than no feelings because any feeling is better than having no pleasure. When you experience full breathing you do not need addictive habits because full breathing allows pleasurable feelings to be safely who you are: a person who is truly alive, no longer confused. Breathing lets you know that you are living and being alive is not only a wonder but a reminder that like John lennon said 

               My mother was of the earth

               My father was of the sky

               but I am of the Universe

When you experience full breathing which incorporates bodily openness, sexual superimposition, then you are the universe which is heavenly.

                

Contacts Increase's Awareness

I have been watching and remembering my addictive behavior. Why have I eaten
12 donuts over a course of a day. Why was having intimate relations difficult?
How are these two primary drives connected? No one has modeled healthy intimacy. Communication must be person to person which families have limited knowledge. When the culture is survival oriented then there is little time to intimately relax. Unconscious panic drives addiction and those donuts are safe and quickly available. A  release from stagnating.

On the bigger scale 1 billion bottles
of coke are consumed every day, and in the U.S.A. 300 million cups of coffee are consumed every day, and I recognize my problems are shared. Every time I fill my car and review the quick junk food that is continually placed in front of me, I am tempted to get a quick fix. Human beings survive under many difficult situations: Everyday life
can co-exist with less dangerous addictions and surely coffee and coke pose no immediate threat to survival.

Denial is an invisible symptom and goes hand and hand with the famous caveat of I have no problem: smoking once was considered safe. Having an addiction can cause you to feel shame and secretive: keeping the lid on secrets can make your addiction hidden to yourself. Addictions to any of the following can be harmful: Coffee, work, liquor, legal and illegal drugs, sex, TV, and eating. My overeating is a substitute for not being able to satisfy my primary need of intimate sexual contact.

 

Depression often is an underlying factor that leads to addictive behavior: the easy road
to quick release from depression is losing control which radically opens emotions; it's why addictive behavior is so prevalent. Depression blocks you from the expression of your core. Self perception needed to be hidden, to be covered by armor to protect self realization: not knowing how to express anger appropriately , instead in a private space express oneself but if no one inspired you to protect oneself as an adult then it leads to depression and addiction your safety valve.

Music can help friends connect.  Music and friendship two important avenues that should not be forgotten. Music, and friendship helps the Orgone remember to expand. Staying open allows a natural expansion of feelings, Orgone, to move  in harmony with friends. Feeling like the world and ones life makes sense, when one is in the company of of a loved one that also feels the love. 

Ain't No Cure For Love by Leonard Cohen.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cPdUkWCDmGM

Why You Wound Up Like You Are

The movement through the birth canal should actually be one of pleasure,
to the parent and the child. The expression of energy for the baby is all
encompassing; it is a rippling of energy outward. When the babies energy (movement) is blocked, the baby either takes literally days to be born instead of an hour or needs a Cesarean section. Then the baby is welcomed to the world with harsh lights, painful solutions to the eye, separation from the mother, no breastfeeding, and circumcision. Then depending  on how many insults you survived, your musculature will compress (Dr. Reich calls the hardening of muscles armor) to block the flow of energy and not to be scared to death..

Babies are instinctual lovers of pleasure, (as should adults), their energy is fluid and joyous. Dr. Reich uses the analogy of the pin sticking the amoeba. Stick the amoeba enough times and the amoeba collapses on itself and dies.
Depending on how awful your childhood was your armor, ( musculature), character will be a reflection of those insults and like the amoeba can ultimately die.

Babies are great survivors but if we soak up horrible birth practices that hardened musculature, forms the groundwork for addictive behavior.  Each insult, each separation, each physically painful experience causes repressed anger.

Pick up the baby when the baby 

cries: The baby is crying to be close or to be fed. Ultimately not responding to the babies needs causes blocked energy. Your child's addictive behavior is the anger blocked energy trying to release in complaint over their loss of pleasure, closeness, and

autonomy that was never given.

Seeing energy moving in the body as feelings.

Not wildly interactive but if you can imagine the following.
Your at the ocean and it is sunny, a perfect breeze and you are walking
along getting your feet wet. Or
you are coming out of a movie theater just seeing your favorite film. Or
you are with the love of your life. Or
you just hit the winning shot in your favorite sport.

All of these moments bring happiness and pleasure to you.
Feeling groovy as I use to say. Feeling good. What does feeling mean to you?
Please take a moment and scan your body. Do you feel anything moving to the surface of your body? If you feel the movement of energy in your body moving to the surface of your skin then your one of the few people who has escaped our culture of the walking dead.

I am the bearer of bad news. You have forgotten what it is to be alive. Oh I know we all
think and therefore I am. But that is only a small part of being alive. Oh OK big shot
What is the rest?
Ready?
Life is movement. Remember you are that from Yoga. Well guess what you are similar to
moving clouds. Not only does your heart pulse, but energy which you are actually moves within
your body. Like Walt Whitman who wrote about this breeze of energy, this sometimes
gentle movement within us is the movement of life. Your feelings are actually a type of movement in your body: like an amoeba under the microscope that pulses to the surface of its membrane, feelings also move to the surface. Literally when you fall in love it is a moving experience . At different peak moments you have also felt part
of this movement. Why don't we actually feel this movement all the time?

Each of us has our own story. The common denominator is the ceasing of the movement.
If you do not experience the movement (Dr. Reich called them streamings) you will seek addictive ways to compensate for their ceasing.

Energetics of Addiction

Totally based on Wilhelm Reich's work.



Before I start let me tell you some about me. How did I learn the stuff I am going to write about? Writing about addiction is a bit of an addiction. I am very hopeful it is a positive one.

One addiction that I am still confronting and at times experiencing is eating sugary foods.
Over eating and choosing food for it's overstimulating qualities(sugar) still excites me. I believe I am on the right path to balance this addiction. Addictions are secrets. In the following pages I hope to explore what I learned about my energy movement and how honesty about secrets will help the positive flow of pleasurable energy. Keep in mind energy is a huge historical topic: Chi, Prana, Orgone, and many other words for energy.
How does energy move in the body? Why is difficult to feel? How does feeling
energy affect addiction?

We stand on the shoulders of giants. No doubt about that. Who did Freud learn from? I am sure he had many teachers and at some point he was on his own. Dr. Reich was part of Freud's inner
circle from 1920 to 1930. Over the next 25 years Reich taught many Doctors his progressing work.
Reich after leaving Europe set up camp in New York and ultimately Maine. During this time a Dr. Duvall studied with Reich and then went to live and practice in LA..  A Dr. Rinn who I believe
was knowledgeable in Gestalt Therapy studied with Dr. Duvall.

This is where I come in. I began

my therapy with Dr. Rinn an 1975 or so and began my active study of Dr. Reich's work.


I enjoy writing about self knowledge. Without my immersion in Dr. Reich's work
and my eternal gratitude to Dr. Rinn I am convinced I would be dead.
So as we say without further procrastination let me begin.

The future is the child. All can agree on the importance of children.
Children are totally instinctual. The importance of adults in the raising
of children is paramount. Children seek constant reassurance. Any blocking of
their instinctual need for security will result in not only depression but addiction's.

Life is movement. Like an amoeba human beings energy can be pulsing.
Addiction is the substitution of a shallow pulse for life's satisfying primary pulse.
Children are born with the primary pulse and it is a natural unconscious reflex.
As natural as a bird flying. From day one children feel the threat of cessation
of the pulse as an immediate threat to their survival. Closing down the Orgone by contracting the muscles allows a feeling of calmness to occur. The price for peacefully fitting in is the loss of flowing Orgone. Addiction becomes a way of finding some small level of  excitement.  

Without Orgone Therapy my journey to oblivion would have been guaranteed. As a child I was thrown into a culture that demands one stands on a selfish me first. The interdependence of all for human survival has not evolved. The ruthless, narcissistic character begins a path to continued ignorance with no understanding of ones Orgone. Taught how to be Orgone and experience Orgone streaming, and  emotional awareness, I will try to convey my gratitude for Dr. Reich and Dr.  Rinn.