Growing up I had no knowledge my family was askew and simply I like any lemming would have died. What saved me as a child was going to kill me as an adult. Sports, eating too much food and not being at all conscious of the role I played in my family was not working for me. In fact it was causing a unnamed strange feeling, that was very uncomfortable.
Now as a adult I was eating too much and having trouble holding a job. I was aloof, alone, anxious, without knowing what that meant, except I felt very weird, lost. I didn't even know denial existed and only through the genius of Dr. Reich, Dr. Rinn, I was able to experience myself in a way that allowed me to balance and feel pleasure, joy and yes anger, sadness also. But like any intense learning the Orgone work was very difficult and for a contemptuous, arrogant late 20 year old very challenging.
When one is born we are smiling Orgone. Wholly Orgone. When horrifying birth practices compress the Orgone, we shut down and we are in denial. These earliest experiences mold the Orgone into a one dimensional shallow character. Without expressing our primal emotions our armor develops to repress our anger. The armor becomes the invisible way we experience, and react to our culture. Then as a adult ones unconscious angry patterns can be tested by needs that are not being met and a compulsion not understood can motivate anyone to seek an addicted release from the confusion from the ridged armor.
When one is born we are smiling Orgone. Wholly Orgone. When horrifying birth practices compress the Orgone, we shut down and we are in denial. These earliest experiences mold the Orgone into a one dimensional shallow character. Without expressing our primal emotions our armor develops to repress our anger. The armor becomes the invisible way we experience, and react to our culture. Then as a adult ones unconscious angry patterns can be tested by needs that are not being met and a compulsion not understood can motivate anyone to seek an addicted release from the confusion from the ridged armor.
Without help from an Orgone Therapist our childhood will poison our adulthood. Our childhood has to be felt; difficult, re-experiencing those earliest moments, it is the work of a lifetime. Don't let anyone tell you that Orgone Therapy is easy. So why did I do it? Whew. Why do Orgone Therapy if it so difficult?
The habits I developed were written in me like the stripes of a zebra and now I had to find the key, the thousand keys to make what was invisible, the unconscious appear. Orgone Therapy has the tools developed by Dr. Reich that took away the doubt, the confusion and allowed me to feel, and gave me the ability to express myself appropriately, well most of the time. The Therapy is hands on and gets through all the intellectual talk. You have to be ready to learn. Find the armor and want to express it.
Will Orgone Therapy work for you if you are not motivated by feeling really bad? I doubt it. If one finds addiction exciting and is able to ignore the severe long term consequences than the damage that we do to ourselves will never become conscious, unless a shock happens. I think you have to be drowning to want to do it. If you are a successful addict and have perfected your addiction than Orgone Therapy will not work. I have known people who would rather die rather then do the therapy, and Dr. Reich wrote that many patients he had died rather than stay in Therapy. No one wants to see there nuclear family, there neurotic mother and father, there broken family and how there unsatisfactory lives affected them. Going back and experiencing ones deranged parents, the lack of love can cause any one to want to run away.
The habits I developed were written in me like the stripes of a zebra and now I had to find the key, the thousand keys to make what was invisible, the unconscious appear. Orgone Therapy has the tools developed by Dr. Reich that took away the doubt, the confusion and allowed me to feel, and gave me the ability to express myself appropriately, well most of the time. The Therapy is hands on and gets through all the intellectual talk. You have to be ready to learn. Find the armor and want to express it.
Will Orgone Therapy work for you if you are not motivated by feeling really bad? I doubt it. If one finds addiction exciting and is able to ignore the severe long term consequences than the damage that we do to ourselves will never become conscious, unless a shock happens. I think you have to be drowning to want to do it. If you are a successful addict and have perfected your addiction than Orgone Therapy will not work. I have known people who would rather die rather then do the therapy, and Dr. Reich wrote that many patients he had died rather than stay in Therapy. No one wants to see there nuclear family, there neurotic mother and father, there broken family and how there unsatisfactory lives affected them. Going back and experiencing ones deranged parents, the lack of love can cause any one to want to run away.
My addictive habits became unsatisfying and that is what continues to save me. Tasting a deeper satisfaction leads me to staying balanced. Without breath, I could not feel my own Orgone movement and not connect with a lovers The surprise in Orgone Therapy is feeling better by expressing the armor, the old hidden memories: understanding how feelings happen. Feeling right finally because I had feelings, palpable and releasing, and that is the key to staying with Therapy; being taught inch by inch the tools to change.
My addictive habits became unsatisfying and that is what continues to save me. Tasting a deeper satisfaction leads me to staying balanced.Without breath, I could not feel my own Orgone movement and not connect with a lovers. Breath stimulates the Orgone to expand as does love. Knowing love allows me to understand if the connection is deep or a temporary addiction. Feeling deeply allows me to make better choices.
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