Drug Dependecy

Which is it? The worst addiction is? Tune in next week for the
answer. Oh OK the worst addiction is the one
you are suffering from. Mine in general is food.
Everyday I have to eat and I am tempted to escape myself by overeating. Thank God
for my pants cause it is a constant reminder. My pathway to
bliss is only temporary with food. Every addiction is an escape generally from
realizing that you do not know how to function.


OK Drugs. I wound up in the sixties coming from a family whose greatest
contribution to me was neglect. A weed can be strong for awhile. Found myself
in San Francisco in the late 60's. Yeah guess what I did? Thank God it wasn't better than food. That is a bad joke. Anyway what does all addictions have in common?
Yes they are bad for your health. But no that is not the
answer I am looking for. Addictions are substances that reside outside of yourself and give you the illusion that you can control your feelings.
Want peace of mind and escape; take a downer. Want energy take speed. How
about taking a prescription. Same story. Ignorance and lack
of who we are as human beings leads us to drugs and other easy escapes.
Not so easy in the long run or short run for some. What we are taught by our
parents is limited; Homo normalis knows nothing about moving from moment to moment by
our feelings. The result is off to school to get an occupation: success the false hope. No clues to finding satisfaction we turn to
what is available. One easy choice is drugs.


Human Beings move their energy by breathing.
But not restricted, shallow breathing.
Drugs skip over the self reliant, self motivated instinctive feeling
of being alive. Drugs allow one to feel alive and hopeful
until they wear off. Now worse off because you have experienced some relief.

Hey want that feeling of being alive, happy again, seems easy. Except those drugged feelings over time wear off because real happiness does not come from a source outside of yourself.
Drugs. Man they are habit forming. Do not underestimate how difficult habits are to become aware of and to change. All of us have to make a strong effort to practice
good habits that allow us to overcome our addictions.