Sunday, March 30, 2008

The Innocent

First off you've got to experience your situation and not like it. Second don't do
anything silly or drastic. Change takes time and it comes in small increments.
Patience. If ones surroundings does not confirm the trust and does not validate that one is supported as a vulnerable baby than the baby will close down automatically. When whoever disturbed or abused the innocence, than the initial deadening of the mind begins, with the dulling of the eyes, and the freezing of the breath: the feelings are blocked. Should have been a common experience of pulsating life becomes a dreaded forgotten memory.

Now the witness who is you, is trying to monitor your forgotten violent reactions to this forgotten abuse. Feel weird don't know why? Do you get panicky and need, choose your favorite addictions, and escape from the blocked past feelings.

The adult is continually trying to remember and yet is bound up in trying to control the outrage. That is the feeling of being in a pressure cooker. Need release because no one taught you how to find satisfaction than turn to your favorite addictions. The adult appears as the complaining child soon to find their special addiction. Innocence condemned has a violent response. Innocence crippled is violence, rage, and abuse at the back door. Addictive substances can be food, drugs, sex, work(power), gambling anything that moves energy and allows you to feel a little alive. Sorry not satisfied. That is the rub.

Addictions remind one that you are alive. What a double edge sword. No wonder addictions are hard to break. Who wants to be an adult and feel nothing. To not know even what a feeling is.
Feelings are actual movements of energy in the body. No one even had a inkling of that
idea till Dr. Reich. Dr. Reich found ways of of teaching people how to feel feelings,
and so much more.

Orgone Therapy taught me to be a human being. Nothing that my family knew.
Got cigarettes got food go to school. Any body ask you how your feeling are?  Orgone Therapy inch by inch teaches  how a human being expresses themselves.
Lost in denial human beings fear to know how little they know. So isn't it understandable that everyone turns to some form of addiction to stimulate a reminder that life is enjoyable IE the energy of the organism moves to the surface and you feel feel not
only hope but right. Life is good when you feel. That is called moving forward by the great dog psychologist Cesar Milan.

Addictions will remain no matter
how many self help books you read or how many therapists you tell your problems, or how many groups you join. Addictions serve a purpose: addictions block the experience of dysfunction and at the same time provide escape and pleasure from
your dilemma of why am I weird, unhappy, dissatisfied.

Once you feel the energy moving in you than one needs to recognize that the person witnessing that movement is blocking usually out of fear, the complete merging with that feeling. There is
no witness when feeling is 100%.  Trust
is totally letting go. In a world of disappointment that is no mean feat.

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