Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Waking Up

Words are easy to forget. The conscious experiencing of the energy is the here and now. I am writing to remember.
I left off writing and I forget exactly why. The words would nail down the moment
but then I would forget anyway. I remember words one way
or another when the words are tied to energy. No easy feat coming from one very abused neglected childhood. My personal history might be interesting over a beer. I have been taking lots of notes and catching up on my reading. I have been working and etc. So God knows when I'll
write again. Maybe never. 

So first off besides getting yourself into therapy and that is first
off the most important factor, check out Character Analysis Third Edition, and my favorite
post therapy handbook,  Emotional First Aid by Sean Haldane. Bravo Mr. Haldane one
awesome book.

OK where were we with energy movement and addiction. Bottom line addictions are a substitute
for the satisfying movement of energy in the body and its release. Addictions give a small release.
Then disappointment, or just confusion if you are panicky. Next step
for the addictive is more addictive behavior. Ugh!

OK what to do. Initially get some therapy check out Orgone.org. web page for a therapist.
Now if you cannot get a therapist try substituting a good addiction for your harmful one.
Like exercise, writing, or group meetings will raise the energy. If the energy raises that is a healthy way to substitute health for addiction.


But basically this is a blog for people who are in therapy or have been in therapy.
Because as Dr. Reich said "seeking to do your own therapy is like trying to pull yourself out of
quicksand by your own hair".

Satisfaction. What is satisfaction? What is happiness? How do these feelings relate
to addiction? The first addiction I will try to illuminate is overeating.
Being that we all have experience with food and that we have to eat everyday.
Eating is a great substitute for love; that is not getting any or enough love.
Since survival depends on eating, overeating can be very difficult to
understand and self regulate. How does addictive eating substitute for love?


Here is the simple way overeating works.
Particularly sweets, and salt will actually move the physical energy in the body.
This temporary feeling needs to be repeated continuously to achieve a substituted
feeling of satisfaction. Compared to full orgasm addictive eating is like a small stream never reaching the ocean of joy. Rely on overeating to achieve pleasure an you will form a habit, and then an addiction.
You can't leave the table to you finish everything. Eat one for Mommy. On and On
parents, well meaning begin addictions.


Love by touch or familiarity especially in childhood is survival communication that moves the individuals energy out to the circumference of the body providing pleasure and confidence. Depending on how abusive your childhood was you will seek addictions to substitute for the movement of energy.

Orgasm is the result of energy build up and the release of that buildup
is joy or happiness. The energy is experienced physically as waves
of energy. Most of us never feel the energy, we have armored up to block abuse, and
have no orgasmic reference point, no feelings to know how to find true satisfaction.


The lack of satisfaction produces a misdirected anger, and tremendous denial. Redirected anger
is directed towards inappropriate behavior; anything from meanness to violence or or self abusive addiction. Your type of energy release will be directed by the type
of childhood you experienced.
Words can only be a map of encouragement and direction.
Embrace your feelings and begin slowly to find healthy addictions.

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