the well of vision

The origin of consciousness developed when the suns rays warmed, activated the brain and opened an eye evolution; mutations that woke self awareness. The suns light became a sign to explore, movement became easier. An understanding of the outside environment stimulated consciousness and enhanced survival.

Eyes are tools accessing environment, projecting Orgone. Being fully visual means you experience oneself as a plasma being: vulnerable, streaming Orgone. The eye, sees outside and also scans the bodies posture and movements. The eyes are the bucket into the well and the brain is Orgone, visioning images. Remembering by picturing those who abused you helps a fuller vision of consciousness.

Vision, is the portal of consciousness that automatically moves Orgone to the surface of the body if you have freed contraction. Orgone consciousness is evaluating waves that are emanating through other eyes. If the waves are visible, meanings happen. If the muscles have formed a tight armor the normal apparatus of expansion, or the feeling of Orgone rising to the surface, through the eyes will be reduced or non existent. The problem of not experiencing these sensations of releasing Orgone and feeling pleasure is what is absent in our culture. How to unlock the armor, the musculature and experience the Orgone is the work of therapy. 

When the armor locks the Orgone than the eyes will be flat; not enough Orgone moving. When the muscles are soft, Orgone flowing, then the eyes take on depth, reflect feeling, Orgone.

The eyes are the portals accessing Orgone beings. Other people's flat eyes reminds us that humans evolution is ongoing. Orgone connecting between people is hardly existent. To complete humans journey eyes must allow Orgone to flow out of the eyes; the connections become exciting. Ultimate pleasure is total connection, sexual intercourse.

The mind is the reservoir of memory and the interpreter of Orgone. The  eye opens a channel into the brain and consciousness examines it's functional branches. Orgone breathing will bring back a shine to one's eyes. Returning flat eyes reminds that there is still work to be done. Breathing in is a partnership between a reflex inhale for the first few seconds and then conscious expansion of the lungs which fully inflate the lungs. The exhale is a relaxation till the bottom, a movement of orgone is experienced and then lungs opening on the inspiration. There is full circle rhythm without a stop. Often the mouth is open as it is the fullest avenue to the lungs and allows sound to accompany the breath.

 Addiction is a bright detour, a substitute for deep genital connection, that leads nowhere.  Addiction is easy but a lousy view.  Becoming aware of of humans Orgone wonders is an ongoing evolution. Fuller vision reminds consciousness of one's vulnerability. The opening of the eye's depth reminds awareness of it's fragility which stimulates Orgone streaming. Being Orgone is Cosmic.

"And all our yesterday's have lighted fools. The way to dusty death."

Macbeth

Love Expands

Often one hears let go of your holding. It's an important direction. Letting go is the opposite of tight pulled in knotted muscles. Sinking down; relaxing is letting go. Though it sounds easy it's not. Ones character was formed to function in an abused society; one's character spontaneously appears to hide the abusive memories. To compound the difficulty one's character is invisible to oneself. Orgone will react unconsciously against abuse and unknowingly becomes how one approaches the world. Impossible to relax when one is unconscious of how ones character was formed and its function.

Blocking abuse by not responding is accomplished by Orgone contraction, particularly in the fascia and the muscles: finally awareness becomes conscious with expressive breathing and emoting, and honesty. Breathing is particularly nasty. It's repressed, unconscious for good reasons: it dulls the abusive experience of repressed feelings. 

Finally feeling alive is letting go of denying, and having the courage ,and situation to tell the truth. You cannot experience streaming when contracted, stiff, frozen etc. Relaxing the muscles, letting go of the past contractions, of past abuse, showers the consciousness with Orgone. Now that sounds easy but it was functioning to keep one's Orgone from panicking. Orgone movement initially is disturbing. Shocking being alive. These new experiences alerts the consciousness of an earlier way of relating and though exhilarating, also is frightening, experiencing the initial lightening like movement of Orgone. 

Knowing expression, feeling, is the beginning of self regulation. Not relieving the past abuse is a recipe for expressing the abuse unconsciously: without a doubt a tragic ending. Breathing is in partnership with spontaneously expressing emotions. The streaming brings knowledge as memories resurface.

Important changes takes a willingness to follow instructions from your Orgone Therapist and your own consistent Orgone practice. It's no easy road. The primal insults, the babies first ones are hard to access and difficult to express. Yet even a small change, is a release of Orgone, improvement is wonderful and great incentive for continuing.

Letting go in our culture does not happen often, there are too many restrictions, but the insights are startling. One that amazed me is Orgone streaming. Orgone's expansion, potential, is the model for the universe; it's eternal continual procreation. Merging actualization is the driving universal design. Love is expansion, reaching for another and sharing love, releasing cosmic Orgone, eternal possibilities. 

Sadly addiction bypasses the streaming, compulsively blocks awareness and misses understanding. Addiction is taking the hammer and ringing the bell without feeling the Orgone fillings wisdom, the pulsing of shared sexual union. Sexual superimposition is knowing its not one's salvation but a way of expressing human enlightenment.

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Tension

I had a arch pain. No mater what I tried, and I was a massage therapist it did not stop hurting. A foot Doctor looked at me walking barefooted and told me what's wrong. Being knowledgeable about muscles I was sure it was a bruise.

Nope,  he pressed on my right big toe and said that's it. That's what? Your pressing down with your toe. I was shocked. I was pressing down with with my toe. I let up. The Doctor devised inserts to push my foot to the right.

It was the beginning of becoming aware of where I had contracted muscles to stop me from experiencing being neglected and abused. Subtle is kind compared to the unconscious. Humans have remarkable abilities. We were once  in touch with every part of ourselves. Tighten the solar plexus, tighten any organ, and the occiput, the entrance to the brain.

The cosmic energy is ultimate human knowledge: blocked Orgone. I had reduced  my consciousness and sent the pain to never regions, the unconscious. Orgone has been locked away.

Abuse was ugly, painful, and ones life was in jeopardy. No one wants to remember those abuses. Expressing my anger would have been dynamite. Like waving a red flag to a bull. Hiding in the unconscious is the abused, contracted, determined to not feel. As an adult expressing  the abuse delivers the Orgone, and expanded consciousness.

Stress

No wisdom from a antidepressant.

I was put off. The rush from letting go of all that holding caught me by surprise. I was running from the Orgone and then I felt the surge. The past memories came, and all my mistakes, all my inappropriate anger: I was the past, I was tortured, and over time I became aware of of my unconscious armor that was poisoning my health.

Now flooded with change I was different and I would be different. It takes memories of therapy's amazement to continue practicing, remembering that being alive is spontaneous. The Orgone is the engine and it fills everything. Holding Orgone down is living life backwards. Thankfully Dr. Reich experienced Orgone and had the cojones to share the truth.

In Orgone Therapy I experienced relief, an aliveness to motivate me to make the effort. It is no mean feat. The early collapse feels like I am under a ton of mud. It has aged like the worst black mold. It insidiously is me. Finally an earlier deeper, Orgone arises and claims me. Remembered pleasure. I breathe.

Stress caused a falling back that became my solution. My character was formed under stress.  I disappeared, it worked. It's the character I met the world with; is the persona that leads us to addiction; it is the character that doesn't work. Than when we wish to change that character, the addiction can rear its ugly head. 

That is why when in therapy it is imperative to stay away from your family. They stimulate old behavior. It is also true that other stresses, death, loss of job, moving can also cause a fall back. How to deal with these stresses and not choose addictive behavior can be damn hard. In fact probably impossible. But still keep on moving ahead, by making mistakes and learning. Try not judging too hard, and practice emoting, 

The human beings physiology has activities that exist without our control: heart beat, and especially as children energy, Orgone, that is so plentiful: "Go outside and play. As a child it was easy to escape. Now when Orgone needs to be rational to deal with ones own failures it is essential to find time to emote appropriately. The way to relieve stress by activity, movement worked as a child but now it is an addictive escape. Use the past abuse to motivate change.

No key will open up the invisible Orgone hiding within a busted character. It takes being in Orgone Therapy. Learning by following instructions and then years of practicing. A life and death struggle that needs total commitment.

Love, Work, And Knowledge

"Love, Work, and Knowledge are the wellsprings of our life. They should also govern it". This epigraph by Dr. Wilhelm Reich is on the front page of Dr. Reich's books. As I became aware
of my Orgonomic streaming, the meanings of the epitaph became clear: from the wellsprings of our life, our essence, Orgone, streams. When living is governed by Love, Work, and Knowledge life is understood, and Orgone streaming is direct.

When the bubbling anxiety, panicked confusion awakens you to finally change; and you begin to move in the direction of Love,  Work, and Knowledge than addictive behavior will become manageable.

Love, Work and Knowledge are stars that lead to a deeper connection, to a satisfying life.

Love can be described though love cannot be mechanical, or intellectually achieved; love happens spontaneously, having a safe environment. Women acknowledge the attraction and men if available respectably connect.  

Add Knowledge and Work for optimal function. No job means that Orgone will be recessed. No knowledge means that Orgone will not be stimulated.  All three  pursuits moves the Orgone in ways that fill the body with purpose, pleasure and Orgone. 

All three are hooked together by breathing. Less armor allows a combination with breathing to have more Orgone streaming. Better breathing opens the body to feeling one's living pulse. Now you have more Orgone to deal with the rigors of work. More Orgone to be available for love. And the knowledge to keep on learning. 

Breathing can be enhanced by the full body being part of the movement of breath. The whole body begins to move with with the inhale and exhale. Breathing becomes dynamic and the access to Orgone streaming is enlightening, motivating, and enhances desires to be accomplished. Increased Orgone is needed to deal with the dynamics of a society that has a ruthless, competitive structure.

Focusing on Love, Work, and Knowledge streams the Orgone. Breathe in Orgone and use these three pursuits to eliminate confusion. Susceptibility to perversion, addiction, is part and parcel of our culture. Choosing Love, Work, and Knowledge  awakens humans full potential: these three unlock the door to  Orgonomic understanding.  

Love  is the movement of Orgone filling the body in response to another's Orgone.

Work that nourishes the Orgone is the garden where knowledge is planted and love blooms. We are the birds singing.

Mangled Truth

After the Nazi Doctor's sadistically tortured, murdered millions everyone was shocked, in disbelief. Now in the U. S.A.. a less obvious torture is being practiced. Sadly it has been woven into the fabric of our culture and very difficult to stop. Beginning with Doctors who recommend cesarean surgery, circumcision, and ending with poisonous chemo. Their ignorance cloaks awareness and reminds that a fantastic lie is easier to believe than the truth. 

Ignorance in everyday life is hard to recognize. The movement of the body in pursuing goals (Orgone pleasure) gives hope that understanding will lead to a satisfactory outcome. The pursuit is particularly important; it is what occurs spontaneously in biological organisms. The social nature of groups move Orgone, find safety in herd mentality and agreement blocks knowledge. The initial movements occurred in our birth in seeking contact with mother. It is our inheritance to move outward. Orgone. seeks connection. Simultaneously Orgone is the driving force to explore our world. In our culture it is consciously blocked by horrendous birth procedures. Instinctively babies will scream at the abuse. Hospitable  torture will be complimented as providing life long immunity. The Doctor's are so contemptuous that their smug smile and your bill is the result. Sadism has led to calling these procedures healthy.

Yes everyone feels relieved that the baby has survived. Little satisfaction for the baby. Frozen, stiff, contracted and unconsciously angry. Now to spend the rest of life trying to understand why life is broken.

Dictatorships is the emotional plague and runs governments. They are overwhelmed by their contracted Orgone. In torturing others they are relieved. Sadism is Orgone perversion.

Confluence

What is it that still causes the furor about Dr. Reich and Orgone Therapy? Adults have come to a denial of their armor and their character. They do not want their equilibrium disturbed. Dr. Reich caused a earthquake in their perception of themselves. Dr. Reich  persecuted, harassed, and ultimately wrongly incarcerated. Ultimately dead in prison. Et Tu Brutus, murdered by the emotional plague.

The fantasy that Dr. Reich revealed was that men and women were sick and armored. Sexually people were miserable and self destructive. To be awakened to this knowledge disturbed and  threatened a core sense of their being. Getting rid of Dr. Reich was denying they had a problem.  

One of the egregious outcomes of a perverted perspective is the harm done by Doctors.
Doctors purview is limited by the Doctors checklist, and of course the denial of their Emotional Plague. Added to their burdensome character is the pharmaceutical, FDA regulations. 

Doctors use their guides in examining patients and prescribing drugs. Particularly with antibiotics,  there are many choices, the least strong is used first. Often it is not strong enough and a parade of stronger antibiotics is then used. Put back the beneficial bacteria after ingesting antibiotics. I am still waiting for a Dr. to recommend taking probiotics when taking  antibiotics. There are so many disturbing methods used by Doctor's particularly addressing symptoms instead of functional miscues. 

I've been in the cancer wards and smelled the panic from the nurses who whisper try anything else, to the doctors who treat cancer like it is a cavity. Chemo Therapy a poison, is a sickening example and a murderous example. Not only does the panic inhabit the halls of these ridiculous hospitable but go into any corporations and you can smell the fear of survival. Emotional Plague working like a cancer in our businesses.

It is vicious catch 22 cycle and no one leaves without twisting their musculature into an armored shell. And slowly as the cancer eats away at the foundations, than ones hardened, armored posture will be soothed by pain killing drugs. And it is all interrelated. Simply Orgone is not accessed. Then the musculature tightens long enough, heat is produced and life giving nutrients are reduced resulting in genetic disturbances, mutations, ultimately causing a cascade of new wild growth.

In Orgone Therapy I learned how to breathe and other life changing behaviors. Orgone Therapists know how to experience your armor because they have gone through  Orgone Therapy. Orgone Therapists are skilled in working with patients showing them their armor and their resistances.
I on the other  hand am interested in how, after Therapy, I succeeded: often utilizing my new found being to make better decisions and experience deeper pleasures. Therapists and their books espouse ideas and a huge lexicon concerning Therapy. I on the other  hand write about how the therapy affected my life  after I left Orgone Therapy, particularly addiction. I have found that addiction, is a perverted  release, and unconscious of the "second intermediate character layer which consists exclusively of cruel, sadistic, lascivious, rapacious, and envious impulses." 1.  

Sadly addiction is a perverted answer. No one wants to give up a old release, without Orgone Therapy an impossible task. Adults would rather find Orgone Therapy disturbing, than change. The hidden memory of life's primal joy needs to be denied. The loss of cosmic knowledge will now be buried in a tantrum of addiction.

1. Copied from the preface Third Edition The Mass Psychology of Fascism. 

 Dr. Reich did not reference addictions, it is easy to understand that in the second layer resides addictions.

Ignored

Bad enough that Dr. Reich is not understood by the general public and other Psychologists, plus is often called crazy. Oh the sex doctor the one that went to prison. Now a  previous patient is speaking out that he was" tortured" by the Therapy.  

Truly there are people who have been in Orgone therapy and continue to blast away at Dr. Reich for being a crazy, sick, and on and on a nut. I have been reading there thoughts and they scare the lights out of me because I know that they are furious, raging, and murderous. The Therapy will illicit those feelings.

Orgone Therapy will get one in touch with the abuse, the horrible abuse that has formed the armor that is causing one to want to release the tension: years of not being loved. A human needs touch to be loved to be wholesome, empathetic, and balanced. Mammals need the reassurance of touch. Then one will not take there murderous anger out on ones who do you no harm. Emotional Plagues never understand that. No there rage seeks release; horribly, so misdirected

In Dr. Reich's last book Contact with Space he says, I woke this morning thinking  I could be a space alien. The thought is disturbing. Was Dr. Reich truly cracked like some of his so called followers say? In his late years when Dr. Reich was incarcerated. There are reports that Dr. Reich acted oddly. In prison, his cellmate, after Dr. Reich, died voiced that Dr. Reich acted like a delusional scientist. When a great genius who has discovered ways to advance the entire human species, written extensively, applauded by other great people than please do not believe the unenlightened. When you have Dr. Reich in his prime, a singular genius, an alpha male for his generation and for many centuries, understood by very few, and ruthlessly thrown into jail and burned his books: A fact that is still ignored and the importance discarded.

What could have drove the latest person to act out, kill their mother, and kill all those sweet children. Both parents are now working, or divorced, children have lost their intimate mentors and the transient corporate society keeps the parents frantic: the money pressure is brutal. The nuclear family and the culture illicit emotional ignorance concluding in increasing mayhem:  will explode and shoot and maim. And the geniuses answer is we don't understand or the devil made him do it.

What to do, What to do. Stop throwing the people like Dr. Reich in jail. Start paying attention to his therapy and what he has said. Continuously, through his writings Dr. Reich warned of the horrors that he saw first hand during his time in Germany in the 1930's. Dr. Reich could see that the Emotional Plague was wide spread.

The human species is a social species like the dog, or wolf family. In that mix we have leaders or alpha, number ones. When the society becomes huge, complicated, too big to find one leader than the social structure loses sight of the true genius.  Even in the very old days when the leaders became known there was always competition. The ignorant didn't like the truly exceptional,  the sexually potent, the charismatic: the armored was inanely jealous of losing their power over his fellow man and their love of their women.

The majority miss learning from the true leader, the alpha because they can not stand the truth. The adults twisted desires pollute their children; and their sweet innocence will be turned into a corrupt isolation.

Our culture, our social structure abuses us: we are severely damaged; we project our defects, neurotic choices, our need for attention, love that we didn't receive, the abuse that we did get, onto, in this case Dr. Reich, and block the knowledge, the information that will allow us to live a understood life. For each of us this result is a tragedy and a continual mystery for the uninformed. The evolution of our controlling, brutal, violent, selfish, greed filled world is crippled with missing knowledge that would change one's character from a confused, inappropriate person into a loving empathetic helpful group member.

   

Substance abuse

Addiction is finding a substance that when viewed, eaten, touched will stimulate a partial feeling of satisfaction that when wearing off will leave you feeling unbalanced, depressed, and seeking further addiction. The awareness of oneself  afterwards is depressing. The Orgone has flattened and the past high, expanding Orgone loss is disappointing. Now you feel grumpy, flat, nasty in comparison to the addictive state. Not able to generate self regulating pleasure (accessing unrestricted breathing and contact with the environment) we turn to our addiction.

Often it is called a fix like putting glue on a blow out. Addiction is a quick burst like stepping on the gas and pressing the pedal to the floor or eating a whole blueberry pie with vanilla ice cream. It's a rush. The rush of Orgone blocks out the confusion of ones life. Orgone straight to the top. Unlike fixing your life, addiction is temporary. Addiction is the poor mans alive. Nothing better than feeling alive. The rush buries the lost satisfaction of a full life.

Did you ever wonder why addiction is so uncontrollable. When you become uncontrollable the desire for the addictive substance fills you up. 

Lets take my writing, the way I write. I wait for the idea to overwhelm me. I haven't been expressing my sexuality fully and the need to let go of some Orgone in a respectful way has arrived. 

I remember the time like a vortex the addiction took over. 

I had no control and in fact when your an addict you have no control. Once I chose control, as a child, and it worked. Then Orgone accumulated and broke controls hold and I sought sexual  release. Simply the need for release is overwhelming and since full sexuality in all its glorious simplicity is subjugated in our culture, addiction will happen.

Hey Troglodyte's it is easy to fall back. I know stress can alter my choices and I am back making all the same mistakes. Yet my addictions leave a empty, lost. and a sour expression. Stress can lead me to breaking the rules for release. Dr. Rinn in the beginning of my therapy said I  should cut all contact with my family. I know we discussed this action. I can not remember why Dr. Rinn said this but my guess had to do with repeating poor choices stimulated by habitual patterns. These days I have seen my own friends being affected either by losing there jobs and that stress reverted them to a old emotional state.  Returning to a relationship with ones family without having completed therapy, practicing  and understanding ones own character will cause one to fall back into the previous illusions, and poor character that leads to secondary characteristics. Orgonomically the armor has reappeared stronger, invisibly, and Orgone will accumulate and one's character will act irrationally.

I have tied up my consciousness with holding, contracting: this ties up a big portion of the brain, and the descriptive, analytical part of the brain becomes dominant. Addiction is a bad attempt to unlock, a failed attempt too escape the work that Dr. Reich taught that got me back to feeling the flow, the streaming.

I have known many people who have been badly addicted, and after being out of control they sought regular treatment and then would overcompensate by tightening up there Orgone. Control is temporary. Too much work, living with a mate you don't make love to, visiting relatives like parents who make demands and you acquiesce.  

Addiction of all types is like a drug to itself. Orgone builds to a uncomfortable level, because humans in our culture have not been taught how to express fear, sadness and sexual superimposition. When expressing oneself through addiction it's an unconscious betrayal. The anger is interwoven unconsciously with the addictions. It's like saying fuck you, I  am so pissed I will act out. Addictions masks a deep seated  trauma. Orgone Therapy can help you see your true self, 

What Was Missing.

Inspired by David Lanskey

They want all the pie.

They don't care that your plate is empty

Or the banging on the bars.

Who are these people that hold us down, who will not share. The excuses are many. You have to work for success just the way I did. Or I am providing you with a job you wouldn't have. Life is unfair then you die. Our world today can not come up with solutions to eliminate economic suffering. Solutions do not exist. Emotional ignorance has led to selfish interactions, poisonous envy and killer frustrations. Large corporations run by Board Of Directors bottom line humans to control immense profit. Their inadequacy to manifest there core self is financial human betrayal.

Early baby abuse led to humans shutting down, control by contracting the entire body. When the baby stopped by refusing to be present, a split in consciousness occurs and the moving energy, Orgone, stops being used to experience the world, reality. 

Control by babies initial shutting down, is the emergency brake that stays red and forgotten; now no  experience of abuse; control becomes the official template of humans. Focus on holding in becomes an everyday experience and becomes the new reality. Control never disappears, only its memory. Disturbances begins to occur when Orgone accumulates and needs to be released.

Through human growth many releases become outbursts. The modern day culture being restrictive, enforces the discipline of denial to further economic prosperity. This dynamic causes anger that is unleashed  often in self harm, addiction. Being that there are no solutions to unconscious denial, continual search finds no answers.

 

The study of the many odd behaviors of humans have been a life long pursuit of mankind without any complete understanding. The psycological movement brought controversy and for many hope. Applying Orgone Therapy's understanding I have felt how I have stopped my early awareness of Orgone streaming; simply it is a defensive reaction to abuse.

I have written of baby abuse and the coldness of Doctors who are blind to their ignorance. Continued abuse reinforces controlled behavior and allows a dulling of access to a flowing life and a repetition of addictive choices.

Addiction becomes a handy tool. Human's must release Orgone: there is no exceptions. The control that was desperately needed needs release. The blocking of complete release blocks self regulation. One does not see that one's own health and safety depends on fair interactions to survive a harsh reality.  Decision making for the general good can not be found, control has inhibited rational thought. It's a tremendously sad life when one wakes to realizations of self ignorance.

The Human matrix depends on complete safe interactions of all its members to evolve. Like the poem No Man Is An Island these truths have been known. Using people like pencils causes negative consequences to your own intelligence. Human's potential needs spontaneous connection. Controlling other people to satisfy sick urges has inhibited world progress.

Dr. Reich identified methods to unlock early abuse. Without Orgone Therapy early abuse will not be cured. Basically if you do not understand your unconscious anger than poor decisions will be released through addiction. Thrashing at each other during love making will not make up for not being held as a baby, not being lovingly touched. These early behaviors will cause abusive adult relationships and be difficult to change.

Trusting in blood sucking Doctors to teach humanity leads to living without access to spontaneously knowing what is right and wrong. Doctor's baby birth protocol causes shallow, controlled breathing, visual confusion, and occiput contraction and is a recipe for a  bizarre culture. Consequently till all become generous in sharing the bounty that belongs to all, we will have ignorance ruling the world.

Armor is the boiler plate of a gross addiction, an unsatisfied life. Nothing will satisfy the weight of an incomplete life. Every opportunity by the Emotional Plague to unload there misery will be taken. The burden of armor fuels bad decisions. No need to wonder why life is being flushed away: all it takes is self awareness.

Breathing is the secret to knowing who you were and the path to helping you change. Breathing not only brings oxygen in but is a continuous reminder of your past emotional trauma. Often breathing is taken for granted. Breath is sewed into our body that being aware of its movement is forgotten. Yet the awareness of its closing and opening is the key to understanding your addiction. 

The breath when not working well is shallow: because of baby or childhood trauma. Abusive adults hide by preoccupying themselves with contraction: armor is ridgid control and it's effective. In Orgone Therapy you learn how to slowly widen and open the breath. The deeper breathing has brought back the memories of shallow breathing's purpose: occupying denial. Now when needing an addictive experience you realize you are only trying to find a release from that cooped up body. Taking a deep breath reminds you that you have changed and no longer need to take drastic action to feel. Being reminded also means knowing ones character. Change is hard and the work is continuous.

The work is practicing Orgone Therapy. The Therapist's is crucial to the therapy. Dr.Rinn would not let me disappear. Hibernation is what got me through my childhood.  I can remember saying to myself I will never let them hurt me again. In response I completely reinforced my closed character and change has been slow. I had to let the disappointment, the rage and then the fear out. How did I go back? Through the prodding of Dr. Rinn. Through the work on my armature.

Orgone is the precursor to thought: the intellect responds and describes the movement of Orgone. If one doesn't relive the past the damaging nuclear family and by its very nature the nuclear family is damaging, then I would never had been in the now enough to feel the release of orgasm and the balancing of my character that results from knowing the connection between man and women through superimposition, and orgasm.  

Intimacy in our culture depends on security that comes with success which allows for relaxation. Being abused makes honesty, intimacy and relaxation difficult and success impossible. Seeing oneself as abused, damaged and damaging, is terrifying. It is also where change begins.

The future belongs to those who know that there own satisfied survival depends on each other. Let us all take down the bars, the armor.

the return

Seething

We marched into the auditorium.
We were a soaring flock of birds.

An army of friends, never wanting to be separated. Then the fates, miserable beuracracy,
Tore us apart.
It was the ninth grade and us guys were smart.
We were inseparable.

We loved to sing together.
A chorus of beginners. 
Slowly we would clap at the
End. We wouldn't stop
Clapping, clapping spontaneously. There was no conspiracy. Protest linked to each 

Other by the rotten truth.

Never did we agree to their rule.

recover the past in the now

The now is always in the news. Be Here Now Ram Das named a fun book, Don't Look Back a Dylan title. Going over the past is difficult and by yourself, Dr. Reich said, "it is like pulling yourself out of quick sand by your own hair." Hiding in contactless was your template, when words didn't exist, Orgone was all and it stayed hidden. Streaming Orgone had intelligence but abuse made sure it wouldn't be accessed. Left after the difficult birth, untouched. Orgone must be reassured by continual touch or Orgone Streaming will stop.

The past holds ones incomplete understanding of fitting into one's nuclear family. Often overlooked, the early neglect, the medical tyranny, abusing babies is common practice. Held in that first template is how one sees or actually doesn't see the perpetrators of one's cruel beginning. Unfortunately being abused and emotionally limited  leads to an unfulfilled and addictive life. One of the many wonders when recapitulating is finally understanding how the abusers hid in plain sight.

Breath is the door to the magic of the Orgone. In using the tools from Orgone Therapy I found Pandora's Box to be real. After decades of practicing suddenly the past emptied emotionally, the old held in emotional streaming appeared. I was amazed, happy and I let the past pour out like an exorcism; like an old movie, not the devil, but anger tied to memories that were waiting to be released. After letting go of held in constrictions I sank into my body.

Amazing the Orgone. The emergence is a reminder that I still needed to be alert to not giving up. That is what I did as a child. The early neglect is overwhelming, and paradoxically disappears after many extreme insults: paint them not there but at the cost of flattening, streaming Orgone.  As an adult expressing outrage is necessary to overcoming  their abuse.

I discovered that Orgone has streaming memory that stimulates thought. I believe there is uncountable surprises that humans have not accessed. Becoming alive instead of mechanical has led me to wonder about human beings mysterious abilities.

Consider This A Fair Warning *

Living without awareness of Orgone flow means your armored to the gills. The four part Orgone theory will cause tremendous distress unless it is spontaneously released in orgasm. No one makes good decisions if their holding down the release of Orgone.

Denial is mild compared to the emotional plague. The plague driven has only possessive desire to fulfill their addicted need of release; its a combined confusion of consciously calling there own condition necessary and contempt that is isolating. If one cannot be honest, individually and communally than hideous actions will be ignored.

Wars, drugs, people flipping out, so much comes to mind, it has filled up libraries. Even the Orgonomic Doctors say nothing about there own awareness, instead rely on professional terminology; continually focusing on their work, their practice, making their profession their main goal and not voicing their outrage. No wonder there is little interest in Orgone Therapy.

Right now an outpouring of hideous emotions driven by the Emotional Plague has shown in concrete detail the holocaust sickness has not left. Until there is a bodily awareness of Dr. Reich's great discoveries than  horrible decisions will continue.

During these horrific times

Orgone especially needs release. Human closeness reassures integrity, sanity and affection and  guarantees the natural release of Orgone. 

*The Girl Who Played with Fire by Steig Larson

Shared Addiction

Lacking Orgone knowledge, our families struggle even in the best families, to understand how to manage a successful family without becoming dysfunctional. Contrarily the miracle of a shared babies early years enhances Orgone and the baby's oneness is magical. Parents and baby resonate together. Parents are taken back to there own remembrance of pleasure, (Orgone flow). It is a heady time when heaven is written in one's body. Orgone increases and reinforces joy, warmly establishes a continuation of the trusting family. Being a family moves Orgone and becomes a phenomenal time.

Trouble  begins for many reasons. A second child becomes necessary to keep the special miracle of wonderful unknown Orgone movement. Of course the first child can not help feel rejected. All the attention is on the new child.

Money, and the need for it adds to anxiety. But more troubling is the unconscious collapse of the Orgone. The pleasure for being with the baby needs to be released in relaxing adult satisfaction. There is no extended family in our transitional culture. Juggling has worn the parents out and the children are left on there own to find the ingredients for a satisfactory life. Most of us will turn to some form of escape or addiction to soothe our ennui. The culture has orchestrated a survival of the family first and has ignored true interdependence that insures the cultures survival.

Parents responsibility is comprehensive. True concern for the children, being unconscious of Orgone, manifests as protective family rules. That is the parents focus and as the love grows weaker, the sexual needs evaporate. 

Taking care of one's children causes Orgone movement. Reaching out and being responsible drives the Orgone. Both parents  share unifying actions that move the Orgone. This shared behavior is addictive. As the marriage ages and sexuality loses intensity desire for new different Orgone movement develops. Wanting the benefits of being part of a family, some Orgone movement, like an addiction will promote more control to insure the continuation of the families safety.

The parents intentions are oblivious to their Orgone. It is a desire of theirs to have a loving life. It functions somewhat. Parents having no knowledge that Orgone will be needed to sexually be released proceed to accumulate armor. At some point Orgone will be released. Usually it will be secretive and justified. It is uncontrollable. Armor has coiled through the body, blocking pleasure, and demanding release. Being spontaneous, children finding their own choices causes adult anxiety. Children need very little from adults. But parents have children to give adults a purposeful life. The family runs into trouble.

Parental relationship lacks knowledge. Human instinct responds by caring till children are mature. Humans need to step back and allow children to live in community, developing in freedom to explore spontaneously without adult neurosis: concurrently  allowing parents freedom to explore a healthier life.

Psychologically the culture and the family's dynamic demand control. To succeed in this culture demands sublimation and later addiction. Knowing oneself will be forgotten. The need for close animal contact will not be addressed. Becoming conscious of all the family dynamics will have to wait.

Tragically buried self-knowledge will perpetrate confusion and misery leading to addiction. Being obsessive about making sure the family is successful is a two edge sword. First it blocks contradictory ideas about how a family should work, and it allows some Orgone movement.  All find a secondary Orgone, addiction, safe as all are involved with the families continuation.

The entanglement and development of the family social survival mentality has been determined by an uncooperative social ignorance. Though there are other healthier family modalities, the addictive needs have blinded any awareness of them and progressed into the horrific Emotional Plague. Beginning with hunter gathers and morphing into family farms ruthless kings forced taxation structures. This new form of governance encouraged violent acquisitions. The social dynamic, nuclear families, led to a incestuous unconscious that caused blocked Orgone flow. Continuing with the explosion of world population making it impossible to make social change.

Humans supposedly higher species, unlike other mammals, do not massage baby, definitely not lick, and breast feeding is hidden and too time consuming and especially too intimate. The loss of the teaching of love, of shared pleasure, reverberates continually in friends, and intimate future relationships. If the knowledge of Orgone which is part and parcel of beginning life is not shared, validated, a stillness like a non moving stream will lead to a search for meaning, Orgone meaning. The loss will only be understood, retrieved, recognized in depth therapy. Orgone Therapy will unravel the contempt, the grandiose armor laying bare the dead unmoving fantasy that has murdered one's life. 

The family can be accompanied by money worries, anxiety, sexual misery. The family goes forward by successfully eliminating anxiety, through making the continuation of the family a success; the OCD  of the family is the families success. OCD is super pressured forced monied success.

 Being part of my primal family was numbingly inclusive, and unknown to me abusive. My Orgone, was my  hidden consciousness; invisibly insuring my obedience. I fitted  in unquestioning into the families survival: no escape, reminding me of Melville's short story Bartleby The Scrivener. My family like Bartleby's is locked into a cultural dead end; no one was able to show there true self and was isolated from each other  My families presence was so complete that I never had any wish that it would be different. 

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